HOLY!!!

This is not happening! prepare for a novel!

k so Im at my moms typing this from my laptop cause I cant go home!

so back-story if you all remember the neighbor who has sex and is loud all the time and well we finally called management etc...

so around 6pm i start hearing yelling like wicked fierce yelling outside.. f you b etc...so i went to the window and its the neighbor yelling at ME! my husband went outside to see what was going on and one of her bloody ( literally he had blood on him) was outside our door yelling at him saying he was going to F him up and that we dont know who were messing with etc.. so my husband turned around and went inside, we locked the door.

well they came and started to bang on our door and tried to bust in! they were yelling even more profanities saying they were going to KILL Us etc.. Im sure you can imagine what was said..

so I took sam ran to the back of the house and called the police.. they came out after about 2 minutes and the boyfriend took off ( still is missing) and they tried to talk to her, she was so drunk they were just going to let her sleep it off!

we didnt feel safe and asked them to stay around so we can pack and leave safely.. so they did and then as were loading up the car she comes to her patio and starts yelling more and then comes downstairs. she is being belligerent to the police so they put her in cuffs and into the car! and from the car she starts yelling to me you better watch your back Im going to F you up bitch etc....

the manager of our building came and said they were going to give her a 3 day eviction notice, so now Im at my moms and will be here for 3 days and then we are getting a different apartment and are moving because well of safety..

I could not make this up if I tried! what a freaking wonderful day Ive had! Im still shaking inside and scared... you know oi vey!

V blog

Sundays V Blog

yeah isnt here yet because You Tube isnt saving them.. I dont know whats up with that! Im going to try and do one later! I have got to get out of the house.. I do have an amusing story to tell.. but Ill save so I have something to say in the actual blog!

so

I went in and had my foot exrayd and turns out I broke the second bone and my entire foot is now black! I get fitted for a boot today! But on the plus side I get to start my OPKs this afternoon! yay! and will hopefully be making a baby this weekend. I do see the RE for my u/s on monday, and possibly a trigger.

Sam and I have been lounging watching cartoons all day so I can relax and get my foot up so that tomorrow at the DNC I can actually move! but I WILL be having the vicodin with me! but im not going to not go to the convention because this is a huge deal and Im really excited about it! GO OBAMA!

arghhh

Lookie

Video Blog finally

Royally Screwed

So Im freaking a mess!
Turns out that Sallie Mae just offset our tax return and took ALL of it! so now we have zero dollars and we had budgeted for that~
so now our only options are to go down to one car, and make payment arrangements on all our bills! we will try to get a loan for the rest. which our credit is kinda shotty so that may not happen! my husband wants to find a second job but then my family is going to give me the guilt trip for not having one and making him get a second! and ive tried! we are going to try and file an ammendement and reclaim half of the return so we atleast wont have a car payment which will help but it will take up to 11 weeks to even get it approved! so im a mess.. alredy 2 days into my medicated cycle.. praying it sticks so we dont have to pay the rest of the tretment! this sucks royally! life is UNFAIR! I dont have anything to sell either.. arghhhhh it all just sucks!

My outfit from last night!

Ill post more about my life later!

U/S went well

My cysts are gone and my linig is still at a 7 but he is confident it will go back down! I get to start the femara tonight and have a lovely post coitel test on the 22nd if I have a Pos OPK! and trigger around the 25th! so here we go again!!! fun fun! Im off to have some margaritas and fajitas at my bothers party! ttyl

Shes pokin in

I think af is here.. just pink and brown right now but im sure red by the end of the day! Ill be calling my RE to make my u/s appointment as well!

*ETA~ Full flow now and my u/s is tomorrow at 3:45

I just went shopping for a pair of black pants to wear tomorrow to the graduation and im so excited.. first i fit into a 16! and then I decided on a pair of maternity black capris! they are soo cute and only a L! so I will be able to wear them all summer! ( ive got high hopes!) and then a cute pair of black flats! ohhhh I look so cute!

and I wont mention the bag of hershey kisses I just ate.. but at least i can use AF as an excuse right!

Moving on

So I picked up my femara today and then went and orderd the OPK and HPTs. I got a Bfn this morning but wasnt as sad as I thought Id be. I was a tad upset when i went to Mops and saw all the pregnant women but for now Im okay. Im actually cramping really bad so Im hoping my cysts are popping and Im getting ready to bleed! I will have to have an u/s when I do bleed and thats going to cost money! erghh.. all out of pocket! so I hope we are successful with our first femara round! we shall see! at least I get to have a GiANT Margarita now at my brothers graduation! woo hoo for that! ha

New Couch Video

New Plan

So when af ever decides to show I will go on femara days 2-6 and have an u/s on day 12 and then a trigger whenever I get a pos OPK. So I found some cheap strips at babywishes.org and I think they are who I got the ones from my last pregnancy with sam! so maybe it will be good luck! 20 opk and 20 hpt for 20 bucks so not bad! and they are super sensitive.. just what a poas addict needs right! so even though shes not here and im still partially hopefull im also looking foreward to the next round.. maybe a thanksgiving baby! ( that would mean no cooking right..lol) okay anyways! Im feeling better about it now that we have a plan!

Kicking me in the arse

I feel so just blah! Im so tired! Watched Across the Universe and fell asleep half way through! Tht is my favorite movie! its crazy! I keep having these pregnant dreams too or child dreams! I had one last night where we foster to adopt these sets of siblings and I was so happy! then bam I woke up and reality hit! you cant be section 8 and foster here so thats cut off! oh but if I have my own child thats fine! whatever! effing government! Im also hacking up a lung or two. its disgusting! oh and did I mention that deep down im hoping the test was done too early and there is still hope that I may infact be pg! Im not testing till tue am if af doesnt show! but still I almost want her to show so I dont keep holding on to that hope! 

My little man is sick! He threw up at my moms today and has slept most of the day with a bark and a fever as well! Im starting to think that maybe this anemia I have his hereditary and thats why the two of us get sick whenever anyone is sick around us! our Immune systems are just low! and I feel bad that I passed that on to him. you know at the WIC office they did mention that his iron was low but it never actually occured to me that he too could have anemia and that it too could be bad as mine ( which I didnt know was so bad!) 

okay anyways, looking forward to tomorrow because we get our new couches and I am glad at least I have something to look forward to! 

depressed

I just feel like I want to curl up in a ball go to sleep and never wake up! I am so weak today and the anemia seems to be getting worse! and I feel stupid for thinking I was pregnant, then I went to the pharmacy to fill the femara and it was 150 so that sucks and hopefully wont bleed untill I come up with that ammount! and Im scared about the transfusion or rather the possibility of one! I have no energy and Im pale today! lifting my arms takes work! 

Im going to just lie in bed and watch movies and eat and sleep! I hate this! 

NOT PREGNANT

after 8 hours in the ER i am not pregnant! im so sad! my beta was negative! but i do have two lovely blood filled cysts! and my anemia is so bad that if it gets so low i need a blood transfusion! nice huh!

wheres the liquor

another

well it could have been an evap? I dont know! theres something there but I just dont know! it shows up fast.. but I could also have a case of the poas vision! ahhh this is taking forever to know! I just want it to be true so bad!! GOD please let me be pregnant! I cant test tomorrow.. i need to wait untill sunday and see what that one says! No POAS BRIE!!!

I tested again

and possibly have a faint line.. im talking microscopic and you have to angle it to see it. but even though im not counting it as a positive im counting it as HOPE!

working on it

This is brie and due to drama I made another blog! hence the SECRET! anyhow! for the new people who read this I am ttc #2. I took 3 medicated years and 3 miscarriages to get sam. on femara and glucophage! and so here we go again. 65 lbs later and a dose of clomid that worked we actually ovulated and Im excited about possibility it brings! I have so much hope for this cycle! I hope to do some video blogging in a few days and see what that brings! anyhow.. enjoy!