depressed

I just feel like I want to curl up in a ball go to sleep and never wake up! I am so weak today and the anemia seems to be getting worse! and I feel stupid for thinking I was pregnant, then I went to the pharmacy to fill the femara and it was 150 so that sucks and hopefully wont bleed untill I come up with that ammount! and Im scared about the transfusion or rather the possibility of one! I have no energy and Im pale today! lifting my arms takes work! 

Im going to just lie in bed and watch movies and eat and sleep! I hate this!